I'm not really good at what I'm about to say. So read with the understanding that I sometimes have problems putting down in words what's rolling around in my head....but trying to filter as well. And I honestly don't want this to come off confrontational. But it will express my frustrations hopefully. This is not directed at anyone person in particular, or in general, or specifically or anything else. This is just me talking across the table to anyone who wants to listen.
In a nutshell, a group of people started a thread and pretty much stated
"We want to learn how to play D&D" (Sounds of people clanging swords and creating an excited din)
"I know let's get GO to help" even though GO secretly is a mental flake
I was honored, and very nervous. So GO gets all excited because he too wants to play and low and behold there is an opportunity to yet again interact with the denizens of the PH here that I've ...well....come to know and love.
"Oh geeze you want me to be DM...well uhh... I'm honored and I will give it my best shot and commit myself to learning the position."
SO I laid out the cash to bankroll the start of what was to be glorious game play. And it REALLY, REALLY, REALLY isn't about the money. I don't think I can stress that enough. It just represents my commitment to the group that said they wanted to play D&D. That's it. If they gave away all that shit, I would still have gotten all of it..because that was my part I was charged with doing. That was what I was asked to do by way of asking me to DM the group and where we would learn together. Again, I stress extremely, it's not about the money. It's about the commitment.
And so I set about trying to create an environment where people could play, and even try their hand at being a DM by means of credential transference for the server. It's there for anyone to use...as far as I was concerned, it belonged to the group.
We started out a little shaky, but fun as we all got spooled up on how things progress from turn to turn. It was tedious at first but I for one had fun. And I heard from a lot of other\s that they had fun as well even though our group was not even closed to being polished.
And now, some weeks later..hardly no one save two are interested.
I must say that I am quite disappointed. I am sure my few paragraphs here will do more to isolate me as the weirdo of the group. But I just had to get it off my chest. And we are all adults here, so we should be able to conduct ourselves as adults.
To summarize my disappointment, I took the initiative to commit to my part of the responsibility of the group. But it doesn't feel like that level of commitment is reciprocal. I don't want to make it seem like I did this, and I did that ,and I am the man, and I am god. For one that's not my modus operandi. It's fairly obvious nothing works if we all don't play our parts.
I am not flouncing. If you take it like that you are a moron. I'm just having an adult conversation hopefully with some like minded adults.
Have a great day.
GO